I want to talk a little bit about ‘reason’. ‘Reason’ is that thing that tells you that it might be hard to believe in God, or you may feel that ‘reason’ makes it perfectly impossible to believe in God. ‘Reason’ is linked to ‘rational’ thinking which is rooted in philosophies of Enlightenment and the Renaissance, which advocate that man is reasonable, rational and thinking subject complicating the belief in a transcendent, omnipresent and omnipotent God. Following the traditions of Western European philosophical thinking (which I certainly am not professing to know in entirety), the tradition began to challenge itself as time went on…and goes on. God has been proved, disproved, argued and in some cases perceived as neither true nor false. The idea of the ‘centre’ has been challenged in postmodernism, and particularly, post-structuralism has deconstructed structuralism; thereby, putting into question the notion of an ‘origin’ point or ‘end’ point, the centred structure; which complicates the notion of God as unchanging, and everpresent: I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last (Rev22:13). God has similarly been compared to a mask – Marx refers to religion ‘is the opium of the people’, embraced in order to disguise reality. You may find that these sorts of conversations have come up before, with friends, at work, at the pub or in your own inner monologue. The general idea behind a lot of this is that man created God; man created Christianity; God has therefore been compared to man’s self-consciousness.
The next step is to assume that the Bible – the Word of God – is not the Word of God. If you follow this, you may find that you believe that the Bible was manipulated by man for man’s own end: to accomodate his own desires/needs/demands. Common pub-conversations after a few pints often lead to self-righteous statements like these ones which more often than not are used to support strands of feminism, or attack Euro-centrism or to support another sort of -ism. I know this because I use to do it. Within these sorts of conversations, people make a few stabs at intellectual debates about God, and fault is often arguably found in Christianity. This argument then takes on themes such as: the Crusades, sex before marriage, drunkeness, heaven and hell, cults, prophets…and so on. I know this because I have been there. So, continuing with our hypothesis: the belief (of non-believers, ha!) that God is not real and/or Christianity is man-made. Generally, the Word of God is seen to be sexist, patriarchal, back-ward and Westernised, and Christians, in short, have it all wrong.
Interestingly enough, this argument is also used on the flipside: the Word of God is just not relevant in the contemporary modern world. Thinking along these lines means that our subject might believe in God but that the Word of God is outdated and is therefore open to general amendment. There is therefore no need to follow the Word as it is; rather, I could just pick out bits and bobs that suit me, particularly the nice friendly ones about love, grace, being kind to your neighbour, feeling lonely or sad, unhappy, and, of course, Heaven. There is little sense of fear, despite that we should: …fear the Lord your God… (Deut 6:2). Yet,the arguments persist: Christianity is irrelevant, outdated, written by ancient men, manipulated during early Christianity, changed in Medieval times, twisted in the Reformation and who knows what else…the point is that in 2011, the Bible just isnt relevant, right? But there is a God, and He loves me, right? I just dont have to do exactly what He wants, right? I have also partaken in discussions pertaining to the notion that we are are spiritual beings – energies – that live on…where, exactly? Perhaps, the postmodern argument would be that the need for an End, is a human construct, a desire for structurality, for order and for meaning. This would assume that God is man’s desire to have meaning, to find meaning in our own existence. Human desire for a Beginning, an End, the First, the Last, our Omega, our Alpha is therefore understood to be packaged in a nice neat box called Christianity.
So what do Christians make of all of this ‘reason’? A difficult conversation to get into? Avoidable, tricky…Christians dont have the answer? Perhaps, you believe that nothing is certain – postmodernism – that there is no guarantee, no ‘end’ or ‘beginning’…putting into question everything – our very existence even. Or perhaps, you havent given any of this any thought. I have been there. I have been there and I have been there. But that just isnt it. It isnt it at all. I know this because I have used all of the above arguments before, and yet… and …yet: that yet. I have sat in those pubs, had those conversations, and discussed the complexity of thinking Christianity in the modern world. I still dont have all the answers and I cant put together a reasonable argument about God. I cant explain these things, but the ‘yet’ is gone. Words, reasons, arguments? These fail my God. There is simply – most excruciatingly beautiful – no possible way to explain my God in a manner that will do Him any true justice. It is the easiest thing in the world to form an argument against God, against Christianity and to use these tools to forsake Him, but having come to Christ – truly having been born again (2 Cor 7:10) – I know that this really isnt the point at all: reason, rational thinking, philosophy, science – it isnt the point. It doesnt catch that elusive ‘yet’, and it never will.
God is a matter of the heart. He is a matter of the heart!
He is that knowing, He is that moment when you meet a born-again Christian and you get that sense, that feeling that there is something different about them, something you cant quite put your finger on but you know that there is something that is quite uncomfortably different about them. I know this because I have seen it before – not knowing what it was – but wanting it. When you are not in right standing with God, you will look into the eyes of a born-again believer and feel that sense of uncertainty over your own life. I have been there. It is that feeling of fear…you may pretend that you cannot hear your heart beating in fear, and more than likely you will do your best to soften that beating heart of yours; whats worse, is it that you may succeed and spend the rest of your life silencing your heart. Silencing that fear speaking out deep within you, that you are not good enough as you are, that you are not good enough just as you are. You may feel that you need more, that you need to do more, achieve more, have more and be more, in order to be enough. You see that thing about righteousness, about being truly right with God – born-again by blood, water and spirit – is knowing that I am enough just as I am.
For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart (Heb 4:12). God is the same through the ages (Matt 28 and John 16: 7). When you come to Him, nothing else matters; so when you look into the eye of a truly born-again believer, you will see a son or daughter of God in right standing with the Father – it is more than enough.